I was always the youngest one in detox and on day programmes. I hated it - I used to curse my body and brain for breaking so early and not alowing me to have the 'fun' that everyone else was having.
I'm now grateful I got sober fairly young. I have much more of my life to look forward to, free from addiction, where I have real choices about who I am and what I do with my life.
The truth is no mater how much I wished for it to be different, the reality is, I am one of those people who can not drink, because I can not stop once I've started.
I'm lucky to be alive and grateful to be sober. I have an amazing life now. I have lots of (real) fun (not fake alcohol fun), I run my own business, I have lots of love in my life. I am free! And I can only do that by not drinking. I'm 32 now by the way, and extremely happy to be sober and in recovery, and looking forward to the rest of my life living this way. You're very, very lucky - embrace it
