I did that same thing so many time.
I got to well to fast and being the quick forgetter I always for forget how bad "the bad part" is..
Time and time again, I tried to do the impossible and manage and control something so out of control.
One is to many and lake erie is not enough.
I found a way to not only live without drinking , but to really have fun and have more friends then I ever could of imagined by going to the rooms of AA... Food for thought.
Welcome back. Relapses are never in vien as long as you get back..