well...
To begin with to reach into the memory bank and reread this post.
I mentioned "I might need a little more help than I previously thought..."...
That's the starting point of that plan. I am considering visiting several different AA groups in hopes of finding one I really connect with, as opposed to the one I "really didn't"...
I've dabbled with the idea of working the steps. I see lots of gains from that, nothing negative really, and perhaps a gateway to some of the innerworkings of my character I haven't tapped into yet.
So the plan is to:
1. Remember all the times I thought "I have earned this drink..." and where that got me.
2. Remember how incredible the brief extended moments of sobriety led me. All the times I said I never want to go back...
3. Tap into additional external sources as support for both staying sober, living sober in the good and bad times, and to help me discover my hidden inner person...
and drink lots of coffee and green tea...=) I really was enjoying the new coffee pot my mum got me for Christmas and watching the sunrise sober.