Lara, if your are not ready, then its good you are being honest about it. no point saying one thing and doing the opposite. so good for you for being honest with yourself. but remember to not live in the fantasy world of what could happen in 3 months. live in the now. he is an addict in rehab. that is what is the current truth. dont make promises to yourself for all the maybes of what you hope will happen. just live your life, and enjoy your son. if or when H is well then make decisions. but dont waste your life living in what you hope would happen. live your life in the here and now.