"Your addiction to alcohol cannot be wished away" Xune, that's a very powerful little sentence! I think the sooner we realize we are the only ones who can make us quit the better. Looking for answers through others, while helpful, doesn't do the job-we do. Will check out that book you recommended too.
Mammy, please try again for the sake of you and your family. They deserve a functioning mom and you deserve to be healthy and happy. Drinking will never solve financial problems, or any other problem and you know that. AVRT may help you learn how to think through the urges to drink and help you choose not to. I found it very helpful.
Don't be scared of another day one. It can be the start of something wonderful for you. It can be today and start right now. Keep it simple. Just don't drink.