Hi Bob22,
I didn't read all the posts on this thread but did read a lot of them. I'm on day 28 and have had a whole lot of anxiety, tension, bad headaches, and dark thoughts over the last week. The only times I get out of the bad stuff in my head is when I'm with other people -- especially people in recovery. I'm going to an AA meeting every day and sometimes 2, and have started talking to a couple of people I've met there. Even when those conversations don't go well, during the talking I get this marvelous release from the pressure in my head. At this point in my recovery, I couldn't get along w/out being able to talk to/listen to others about this problem.
It seems like you went to a couple of meetings but haven't gotten involved. Are you isolating yourself in your sobriety?