Thank you SavageHenry, your reply and everyone elses really really helps me. I have a whole bottle of Ativan that I have been holding off taking because I don't want to become addicted to them. I am sure they would make me feel better but I also have the worry that the anxiety will last for the rest of my life and I will need the Ativan to live with it.
I took a walk and feel better. I actually talked to someone out front of their house and it made me feel better. This is really hard!!! Going to an AA Meeting at 12:30 today.
Thank you again and I hope you are doing better!!!