I just feel if I leave I won't be able to be on a worship team for a long time anywhere and worship is my calling - it devestates me to give that up - although I worship God in my own time anyways but I can't explain it - it feels like I've lost so much.
This may be hard to think about right now but.....God sometimes hands us gifts that we don't recognize at the time. And it's not until much later that we can look back and understand. You just never know....perhaps there is some reason that God felt it best for you to find a new place of worship for some reason that you can't understand right now. Turn it over to Him....and let Him guide you.
gentle hugs
ke