I was an at home drinker too.
Support helped me a lot.
The thing I found with being an at home drinker is you very easily get lost in your own head, in your own thoughts and your own troubles.
You can change the people aspect by bringing in other folks.
An outside perspective can be really helpful.
It can be as simple as using SR when you feel like drinking for example - you may find the feedback and support you get can change the outcome ....I certainly found it did
You can change the places aspect too by getting out of your house.
There's other real life supports like recovery groups, and counselling...are you open to any of those?
Volunteering was a good way for me to get out of my own head too...I found a little meaning and a sense of purpose back in my life made it a lot harder for me to drink.
If you want changes, Nina, you need to make changes I think - changes, even little ones like these, can help the things aspect too...add more tools to your life and our reliance on alcohol as a universal problem solver will lessen
Noone is beyond hope.
Just think about what you need to add to make his happen, LittleNina
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