thanks for your support! :ghug3
i realize that despite this hardship i've done some wonderful things in my life. and i'm not giving up.
honestly it doesn't matter to me if it's day 1, day -5 or year 17. of course it's awesome to have nice streak under your belt, but can i really discount the great gifts sobriety had brought to me?
i often ask myself the question: "what's the point?".
when i drank... the answer was almost always: "there is nothing" (followed by a few sips of heavy liquor).
when i was sober, it has been an intriguing: "you have a chance to find out!".
strangely enough i might have needed to look the beast in the eye again. (my AV trying to trick me into thinking that this was somehow destined to be part of the process?) to see how far down i can still go, but how quick and easy it is to reach the rock bottom.
i don't have much support other than SR, so i'm thankful as always to be here.
i hope this feeling of brighter days lasts for a little while longer.