Unhappy Hour,
I too had alcoholic parents and hated being around them. I planned their interventions. I helped my brother get through a crack addiction.
When I was 35, I had gastric bypass and I substituted a glass of wine for dessert. I was able to do that for about 1.5 years and it escalated. Wine and beer went through me so quickly that I could drink quickly. But, I would appear tipsy after 2 and slurring words after 3...super drunk after 4. I didn't face that I had several things to watch out for...family of alcoholics, a personality and food issues.
I have spent the last 8 years working on this. I even witnessed my mom needing a liver transplant.
The issue is that drinking always escalates if you have the family history and they say if you get sober and relapse, it doesn't take long to be at the same level or higher in consuming alcohol.
Post, read, admit to yourself, you deserve it! Be proud of every day you don't drink.
gigi