Sunny, I am with you. I was on the brink of losing everything, and went to treatment for a couple weeks. They pushed for AA meetings and I went a couple times a week, but it just did not do everything I thought they would. I haven't been to one in a month, but I do have a church recovery group I go to 3 times a month. I think it is the "game" of showing people that you can do it that is pushing me, otherwise I would've had a drink a long time ago. Definitely reading and hearing other peoples stories rocked my boat and make me strive harder than before. The hard days are the worst, but if you keep your head down and run through that pressure, the reward will be awesome! Believe me, my relationship with my wife (every aspect) is the greatest I have ever had! Keep it up, Do good, Be great, Enjoy life!