For me,no matter how bad things got,no matter what I did or said,the shame,guilt,embarrassment, the memories do fade over time.You will feel better and then it's easy to drink again.I need something more. I don't go to AA but am reading Rational Recovery:AVRT-it takes a more control it yourself approach which might suit you more than the powerless concept
And SR of course keeps me sober.I'm in the December 2012 class,under daily threads-come and join us for support(as you stopped in December ) Its full of people who quit at the sametime (I'm 26 days)
