Great post....You don't have to be religious to pray...Just willing to believe something out there can help you. When it does...You gain faith. I am was at a meeting last night..Small one...There were 5 guys there with over 150 years sobriety combined...I love to listen to them. One was talking about how if you were homeless and starving...And you saw a 10 dollar bill on the ground....You'd reach down to pick it up and get something to eat. It's like that with God's Grace...Whatever your God is....It's there...Just so many people won't reach down to pick it up. Sounds like you gained a little faith last night....I gain some every day I don't obsess about drinking....What a miracle that is. Have a great year fdm...And keep praying.....I haven't met anybody yet that relapsed for praying too much.