that does help and i think i did just need to write it for myself for the most part. but i guess inside me i am just so angry i want him to know how seriously he hurt me. but i understand exactly what your saying. an dyour right this wouldnt help him and would most likely just make him feel hopeless. like i said he hasnt even entered a rehab or anything yet but i am still praying he will. for me its strange because before i turned off my cellphone he would jiust keep telling me how badly he wanted to get better how badly he wanted to go to rehab but then he just wouldnt do anyth8ng about and would just keep disappearing and ignoring my phone calls. even after i tried to be supportive and forgiving. do you think that because he says he wants help and recognizes that he has a problem that he is likely to eventually do what needs to be done? i want to believe he will so badly but at this point for me i dont want him to tell me i want him to show me.