Just NOW at ten months sober, I am noticing a big difference will be coming: because I am surrounded by my awareness of all the ways I am dissatisfied with where I am in life.
Since I've promised myself I won't drink, I know I will have to find it in me to change soon.
These will be changes that should've occurred twelve years ago when I chose alcohol over personal growth and over dealing with reality.
I am actually scared, overwhelmed, tearful, and bewildered as to how I will go forward.
But since I won't drink, I know I will go forward.
And that is how I know quitting alcohol will make a huge difference in my life, probably in ways that I can not yet imagine.
I have to deal with my resentments and my deep fears. But since I won't drink, I will.