much appreciated ... and i don't mean to sound that arrogant (for lack of a better way of putting it) that i might not need AA. fact of the matter is, i definitely need something. my dad was in AA so i guess repeating his life is what makes me want to avoid. and probably in turn exacerbates the problem in the first place. i will say that in the past i've had moments where i've said to myself "no, i'm not drinking anymore" and 2 weeks later I'm hammered in some bar. but this does feel different. it was definitely a rock bottom. i can't do that anymore. and i can't stand to bear the thought of how my life has been impeded since i started drinking and what could have been had i never touched the stuff