Heart breaking Holiday
My heart is breaking at this moment for my AM. She has been drinking for the last 5 days in her house alone. Second time this month and she lost her job yet again. I understand I cant help her but have the fear of her dying. This will be the first Christmas without her as she will not be aloud over or she will be too drunk to even think about coming over. I feel angry and sad that I have to worry about her being dead in her house. I'm having panic attacks so I have not called her in 2 days. The guilt kills me but I have to let go for my husband abd children as they need me.