Thanks, guys.
Just to clarify, as I think some people have the wrong idea, I do not "wish" relapse on ABF. I would never wish something like that. I just said I am "almost hoping". Maybe this doesn't really get my thoughts across well. It's almost like when he was drinking I "almost hoped" he would beat me up so I could leave.
I am in a very difficult position as I am a foreigner in his country, where few people speak English. Obviously I am trying to learn his language, but this is slow-going. I also live in a remote village, where no one speaks English. So even if there were English-language Al Anon meetings, or an English-speaking counsellor I could see, it would be too difficult to get there. His family are all big drinkers too (and don't speak English), and some are alcoholics themselves. It is considered normal. So there is no support from them either.
So Sober Recovery is basically it for me.