UltraB, I didn't find you Snarky at all, I think you were exploring your options....you drank yesterday, but you are back here today, still exploring your options.
no matter how you do it, there is hope every single day, program or not.
Congrats on taking Antabuse and this is a WONDERFUL day to quit....(BTW, today would have been my mother's 92nd birthday)..I hope you have a great day and I think you will feel less depressed about the season if you remove the alcohol from your body. I know I did.