In all fairness....You started a thread saying nothing has worked for you. You mentioned you didn't like AA the first three times you tried it...But the last time it helped. You asked questions about how often I went and how did I find the time. I tried to share with you what worked for me....When I was at a place where nothing else did. I have nothing to gain whether you go to AA or not.....I don't make a commission on it. It's free. I will say I hope you find something that works for you...I know what it's like to feel hopeless...Just know there is hope.