Originally Posted by
wanttobehealthy 
Why does this matter so much to me?
Ah, the million dollar question. Unfortunately, only you can answer it. Just guessing, but maybe there is a part of you that fears they are right and wants to prove otherwise. (Not saying they are right, specifically saying you have a *fear* they are, that's all.)
Do you have a therapist to help sort these things out? I found an insightful third party invaluable in digging through my insecurities and fears.
L