If you can moderate your drinking then that is great! Set yourself firm limit and don't go over them, ever. Moderate drinking rates for a woman is no more than 2 drinks per day and no more than 9 a week. It sounds like you are drinking more than that at present. One program, Moderation Management, asks its participant to do a 30 day abstinence period before trying to drink in moderation. Perhaps you could start today on your 30 day alcohol free? If you find that it is very difficult for you to do this, then you might want to reevaluate your goals. I find abstinence much easier than moderation. I hope you find something that works for you.