Get honest with your therapist about the drinking tomorrow, otherwise, he/she does not get the full scope of your issues and as such, can not help you.... I went through 3 therapists before finding one who actually understood alcoholism...
Have you been part of any recovery programs ? S.M.A.R.T ?
You seem to get the fact that you can not beat this thing alone, many of us have tried, me included...
One must typically hit a personal bottom before finally admitting and accepting powerlessness over alcohol.. Hope you do not hit it too hard before taking action to enjoy a better life, which we all deserve.