This was the last post you made before this Today's:
Originally Posted by
sup3r1or 
I think I should accept the fact I shouldn't have even one for a long long time. Yesterday I had 1 and what is the result? Got smashed, hammered again. was going to the shop till they closed. Feel awful today again So sad, I was feeling so great when I didn't drink
Then, ignoring what you aready know, you choose to go out again, FOR ONE. Nothing changes if nothing changes.
My advice, quit thinking, and quit drinking.