Thanks for your replies. It's just been hard the last few months because I keep thinking about the "good" side of him and I think well if he's no longer using and getting help that everything would have been ok. The moods would be gone and such.
But I don't know the real him now that I think about it.
And you guys are right I shouldn't feel guilty but it's so hard not to! Especially when he says that his family thought I wouldn't leave him and that he hoped i stayed because he knew I would make sure he stayed clean.
makes me feel bad to read that I didn't care and left him when he needed me and his support the most in his life. But he's the one that lied. I forgot to mention that he started selling too when he was using!!
I'm just trying to understand... Addicts know they are lying right? the drugs don't make them. And how much different are thy when they are "recovering" do drugs alter a personality by a lot or not really.
I'm glad I found SR it's def helping me.