Christmas Party Tonight
Last year when I went to this Christmas party, the cops were called to my house...
I am excited to get all dressed up and see people I haven't seen for awhile. I have been told many times recently that I look 'really good.' I am sure that is due to the fact of not having alcohol in my system for awhile. I have an escape plan for the night. I am driving myself, it is very close to my house. I can just leave any time and that feels great to know.
So why am I craving booze? Is it the rush from the alcohol that I am craving? It is certainly not the taste nor the sloppy drunkenness antics or the hangover that I want. Is it the social stigma that everyone is doing it that I crave? Or is it the sugar that I want? I have been eating a ton of sugar lately.
Why do I still crave alcohol when I know that the outcome of drinking has been so horrific? The question of the day...