medicatrix

I'm not sleeping very well at all. When I'm drinking it's no problem to be this exhausted because I don't plan on doing anything during the day but go home and kill another bottle of wine, thus making myself pass out. This has basically been my highest expectation of myself for the past couple years. Just make sure I pass out at night.

Can't do that, so I'm not sleeping very well; restless and exhausted when I wake up. I overreact to things and I'm overwhelmed.

I have to watch my temper. I've been running hot all week. And stress -- I need to move my body and I feel terrifically constricted, like I'm shrinking in on myself.

This all got solved pretty fast half a bottle in. At the moment though the thought of any kind of alcohol at all just grosses me out.

I just wish I could sleep better, and I wish I had the energy left at the end of the day to exercise more.

But. I'm gonna make it. Day five. Yay me.