I must be the only person in the whole word who get 12 weeks off forced paid leave (due to me not coping with relationship issues break up, abuse, changes at work, two little toddlers, finances, teenage daughter etc..... so took xanax towards the end the last two months. The two weeks prior to him moving out I took it way in excess just seeing him made me want to feel nothing) in any case 6 weeks in after being 10 days in rehab once a week Drug and Alcohol group support program all day, once a week couselling, gratitude journelling, but there is just not joy I am supposed to be grateful to actually not being fired from work or getting a warning letter but nothing instead I get annual leave and I find it really hard to enjoy or relax in it............... I must be crazy or something......is it me or am I really pathetic????
