Welcome Imabuleva!
I could have written your post (minus the engineering part, though my father was one). I wish I had a count of the number of morning promises I broke by evening. I played video games, too (hours of them)....whatever mindless thing I could do while drinking.....
Drinking every day (even at relatively low levels) can create a vicious cycle of anxiety/depression. I didn't realize it at the time, but I was actually having minor withdrawal symptoms each day.
Coming here helped give me the strength I needed to change my life. Good for you for recognizing your problem and wanting to make a change - you can do it!
