Well. Some good news.. i think ive come along way since i started coming here. I miss her. i will admit there have been times i have considered going back.
but all it takes is a message or something from her and i realise exactly why i wont go back.
her outburst dont hurt me like they would have a year ago.
I'm Free.
and I got a phone call today letting me know that i now have my own house
i pick up the keys on thursday for my home,
one that will be will be filled with love and joy and freedom and most importantly ME!
I did cave and respond to one of her messages, she kept asking why I left.
and so i told her. she broke me.
and as usual this angered the alcohol beast. "dont play the pity card, you did this not me this is your pattern of leaving a relationship before 3 years"
the usual quack. I know this an outright lie.
I am a good person
I deserve to be happy
She cannot make me happy only I am responsible for that.
I called her bluff on the pattern and asked "what pattern" no response, and no im not sending any more messages. I will be collecting the rest of my things and moving on with my life.
to spend it with someone that can make me happy and will always be there for me no matter what.
myself.