One of the clever tricks of the beast is to "hold your rap sheet up as evidence" of future doubt of success. Now with the doubt, the beast can sit patiently and slowly continue to work on increasing the doubt, combined with its other tricks until it gets its way.
Bin your rap sheet. It is history and in no way has a memory, or can influence your decision in the present moment.
Still learning about this but I hope that helps a little bit.