so, no contact is the point in which we have had enough? They don't miraculously hit bottom when they lose us right? that's what I understand. I struggle with this idea. I tell myself I am content. I tell myself he is doing well because of how highly he is functioning. I tell myself I am doing well because I don't lose sleep nearly as much as I did. I accept it. I can't change it. I tell myself I am not being abused. although neglect I cannot deny. I don't search pockets anymore... I enjoy my life outside of him, friends family books. He does not steal from me, and spends a lot time in the word, but ugh... I just want Gods will. I want to know that I know that I know that it is gods will to walk away before I do. I know you can't make my decision for me...