Fitz, I feel ya. I'm lonely but I know what I'm lonely for. This is my first holiday season without my (alcoholic) husband and it feels weird. I feel disjointed and lost. I won't drink over it but I don't like the way I'm feeling. I guess it's going to be an adjustment period but I don't like it. I am just writing this holiday season off to "personal issues" and hopefully next year will be better. Love ya, fella. Hang in there.