Originally Posted by
Thepatman 
The big plan is supposed to be a permanent deal to not drink ever again.
I would suggest the reason the OP might be struggling is due to this "permanent" plan. Here is my question. What else in life is permanent? According to science, nothing is. So wouldn't logic dictate that by adding such a Sysiphean task to our already difficult struggle only exacerbate our anxiety and lead us to drink again?
Why add this "permanent plan" when nothing else in this world is permanent? Why add such an insurmountable task to your path? Why continue to push this rock up the mountain only to do the same again when it drops down the other side?
Again, this is my understanding, if it works for you keep doing it! This is NOT an attack on AVRT or your path, it's just a valid question I pondered myself.