Mistee,
Your post about your visit with your son really touched my heart. My daughter was a special needs child for awhile, but nothing as serious as your boy. She was born premature, and had to spend two months in the hospital, and had a therapist that came and worked with us weekly until she was three.
It sounds like you are really doing what you need to do to take care of yourself and your family. I have read some of your other posts, and I think you have come along way.
Juls