Today was my first day back at work (after being caught drinking there).
Today for the first time in a long time I was sober all day, until 10.30pm at night when my shift finished.
It is not much of an accomplishment, but I am pleased with myself.
I know you say I cant yet hear my AV as Im still drinking, but I have already begun to hear it. I hear it say, "have another glass, yep go on open the next bottle, um no dont go out to the clothes line, drink this first, it will be easier...."..
Today when I took "its favourite toy away" .... I had a slight withdrawal, and really heard it, wanting to go drink in my break, but I just kept wanting to achieve this small thing (of not drinking til I got home).
And when I got here, the book arrive. So it's on. Time to immerse in the book. Take the leap. Thanks all for the support and guidance so far. I feel not worthy as Im still a boozer, but when I do it, I'll post again, and no doubt need lots of tips as to my tricky sticky beast..
big love. x x Q