Originally Posted by
ajswms123 
... i know i want to do this so so much, just not sure i can
You can. But it will be difficult, especially if you are attempting this on your own without a recovery plan in place.
Having a glass in your hand isn't a routine. Not two bottles of wine a night. This is a battle against an addiction, not a habit. But it can be won.
Stay logged into SR, we'll help. But you should give some thought to a form of face-to-face support.