The one thing I know, for %100 is that I know nothing.
Alcohol kicks me in the patootie. kicks me up and down. Do I remember it? Heck yeah. Will alcohol kick me again? Yeah, but only if I let it.
Pat, you can win this. You really can. Is it easy? hell no. I'm sober right now. That could change at any time with any trigger. Do I want a drink? Hell yes. Am I gonna, hell no.
I walk, I play video games, sometimes just take a bus then get on the subway and ride. Do something, anything to keep that drink thought out of my mind.