quinn, welcome. i know what its like to not what to stop but to also want to. i was reading yesterday, some doctor on the website for hbos addiction series, was saying that "needing to hit bottom" to obtain sobriety is a huge myth. ive thought ive hit bottom several times. had horrible consequences. had nothing. and this time, although i had a short run, i just saw myself doing nothing and becoming more and more depressed about my situation, to be like, "i dont want this".
but i have to say, it does take what it takes..
again, welcome.