Originally Posted by
chicagowife 
I have so much fear, anxiety and sadness right now I just don't know where to begin.
My biggest fear is that I will have to make good on my word and leave him and he will spiral downward.
My biggest anxiety is that I will catch him using again.
My biggest sadness is that I have lost an individual that I loved so much and I don't know if I will ever have him back.
Awh wish there was something i could say to
Make you feel better. No one knows what the future will bring. He may sort out he may not but only he can decide.
You are doing the right thing in coming here n talking through your feelings.
Maybe time apart may be a good idea but again only you can decide that.
Do you have any friends that you could offload to, go for a coffee or something to take your mind off things???
Remember you matter too n being healthy. If you keep worrying about him like this you are going to be ill.
Take care x