If you cant afford a counselor then please get yourself to a meeting.. Alanon or Naranon meetings will really help you with the tools you need to take care of yourself. Sometimes just talking to people who really truly know what you are going through helps give you a fresh prespective.. You do need a life apart from him because if you are not careful you will get your own self wrapped up in his recovery or lack of and not focus on whats important.. YOU!! been there done that and I'm wearing the darn T-Shirt.