Hi and welcome findignmyself
being a drinker was my identity for 20 years or more - my drinking defined me.
It is scary to let that go - but many of us here have done it...and I for one have absolutely no regrets.
I'm very grateful that I re-discovered who I really was...and more than grateful I like the guy I found and the sober life I've built
I know you will too...it's a leap of faith, but it's worth every second
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