Welcome to SR... I am only on day two here myself. That first decision to stop can be a really hard one, even when you know you want to - at least part of you does if you are searching for answers. One thing that helped me when I was at my weakest was to play a game I called 15 minutes. I'd think I want to drink now, but if I can just wait until 7:30... then I would usually notice again at 7:33 and think, well, already 3 minutes in, I can wait to 7:45... and often I would get distracted enough to put off drinking for awhile at least. Not sure if it will help but you never know.... good luck!