Originally Posted by Graceland

I keep saying that I can't talk to AH and it's so true. We had a conversation last night, which focused on my co-dependence. He told me that I needed to "get help" for this (which I acknowledge) and that I was not creating a good environment for him to recover. I know this, too.

So, why do I wake up this morning feeling so hurt and sad? And frustrated. I know that I have work to do and I'm doing it. I'm reading. I'm going to Al-Anon. But I just feel like it's almost being used against me - that once again, I'm the "broken" one in the relationship. I'm so turned around that I don't know if it's him or it's me. I don't know why I'm left feeling so guilty and like I have some defect. I don't seem to know how to think straight anymore.