Welcome to the family! I drank around 20 years longer than you - and believe me you are doing the right thing. Because I didn't see the danger, or care to confront it, my life turned into a nightmare. It was so hard to get things back on track. You won't have to worry about that.
Congratulations on this great decision to change your life. SR will help you stay strong and hopeful. We all understand how you're feeling.