Sorry to hear that rainiee but, on the bright side, you have a great recovery attitude!
You can hear Al-Anon step or topical podcasts online anytime. You also can download them to your smartphone or iPod so you have them on-the-go whenever you need them. The iTunes Store has step podcasts free as well.
Online. Just press the Play arrow and then "Listen and Learn" here:
Using Al-Anon's Steps in Our Personal Lives
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First Steps to Al-Anon Recovery