If you are willing to do whatever it takes to take back your life you can, with help here, and in my town I took it back and recovered. Unreachable, heck incomprehensible to me two years ago. I had failed at quitting too many times, and had given up ever breaking free. I loved drinking when it was voluntary. Hated it when it became mandatory.
It is no longer manatory because I don't voluntarily now. Check, and mate.
The only way to win at this game is not to play.
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JLMP, meetings are in the chat room. Go here for schedules, just scroll down past the locked threads at the top:
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