At some point in time , I just snapped, I said enough.
Not love, not time together, nothing, there is nothing that will change that fact that I do not and will not be in the sights of an active alcoholic, it's like being a caged animal.
It becomes a life of same ****, different day.
If she is sending you a message, listen to it.
Your drinking is turning her off. So now you have a decision to make. It's your to own, yours to change, if that is what you choose.