lui,
There is nothing to be ashamed about being a recovering alcoholic. You have a problem, you are working to fix it, end of story. What other people may or may not think about this is not important, but my experience is that more people are impressed and even inspired than are judgemental. Plus, the real truth is that most people will never know. It's not like you will be walking around with a big letter "A" stitched to your clothing. I went through the same fears when I started.
I know it is hard to believe this right now, but you are starting the number one, most important thing you could possibly do to make your life better. You will be totally surprised by the positive changes that will occur in your life as a result of this decision.
In this life, in this life, in this life
In this oh sweet life
We're coming in from the cold
We're coming in, coming in, coming in
Coming in from the cold
It's you, it's you, it's you I'm talking to
Well you, it's you, it's you
It's you I'm talking to now
Why do you look so sad and foresaken
When one door is closed
Don't you know another is open
Bob Marley, "Coming in From the Cold"
I wish you all the hope and all the strength you'll need. Stick around SR, there are some of the best people here.
Jah Bless